It's been a bad week. Even us big retailers have bad weeks where the business seems hopeless, we feel like we aren't making progress, we get a bad email or we are fighting internally (this happens a lot in a family business)... and in a really crappy week all of these things happen at once. Oh yeah, and I am getting married in a month. (insert swear word here).
When life's stresses pile up and I become unbearable to myself and those around me, my glorious sister (who has a way with words) tells me to "go sit by myself in my poopy diaper by myself". And so the first half of this week, that is what I did. None of my family members would play with me, no one wanted to talk to me and there I sat. So I decided to pick up my rug hooking.
A question we are often asked in the rug hooking world is what do I make with this? It's not large enough to be an area rug and not small enough to be a coaster. But after this week I realized, that maybe you do not need to make anything with it... maybe it is the process of creating that is, in fact, the gift. In this utilitarian day and age we are constantly needing to create a purpose for everything and needing to know what we have accomplished. But why, the Yogi asks? After an hour of meditation, would you want to know what you accomplished during that hour? Would you be wondering which item from your daily to-do list you checked off? No, because that is not the purpose.
"One conscious loop - pulled up and then the next - is a meditation. -Lindsay Krauss
Rug hooking has long been known for its meditative powers. The act of pulling each loop could be compared to breathing in meditation. As you pull each loop you let go of your worries and fears and focus on clearing your mind. Do not underestimate the healing powers of rug hooking. Maybe the process of clearing your mind and relaxing IS what you are creating. You are working on yourself, your health and letting go.
We could all spend more time on our health and well-being. I, of all people, am the biggest culprit of putting aside myself for seemingly higher priorities. But I find that if I do that for too long, somehow it rears its ugly head and forces me to take a break. I like the quote above. It reminds me that we make time for the things that are important to us. And rug hooking is not just about creating art, but also about working on ourselves and making time to reflect inward.
And so, during weeks like this, I turn to meditation in the form of rug hooking. One loop and the next. One loop and the next.